How’s everybody handling Covid? How about the riots? How about the murder bees?
Just when you think things can’t get worse....haha....they do!
I found out last week that I have breast cancer...again! It’s in the other breast and it’s a more aggressive than the last one I had 10 years ago. (I KNOW! 10 years doesn’t seem possible!) I’ll have to have chemo and surgery and radiation...oh my!
So, that’s fun!
No, it’s not really.
I know I’m joking around but honestly I’m scared. I already had a ct scan to see if it’s anywhere else in my body and I’ll have a breast mri sometime this week. Breast mri will be me, laying stomach down in a machine. I’m freaking out. MRI’s scare the crap out of me and last time I had a regular one I had a panic attack and couldn’t do it. So...there’s that.
I want to say...”the worst part is” but there are so many worst parts that I can’t really say that. BUT, one of the really crappy parts is Covid. I will have to go through most of these atrocities by myself without my support team. I went from feeling very concerned about Covid to being petrified that I’ll get it. Doctors said for me to not even go to the store....stay home!!! Which, of course we all are doing, but I did go to the store a few times and a few weekends ago we went out of town and although we were careful...what the hell is careful anymore? I would like a plastic bubble placed around me at all times, please. Plus, now Bossman is going to have to do all that for me and if he gets it, I’m screwed even more!
The cherry on the top of this shit sundae is my beloved cat of 14 years decided to get very sick last night. Why does crap always happen on the weekends? So 1500 dollars later and we are hoping we don’t have to put her down yet.
So as you can see, 2020 has not been kind to me. But Bossman is being so sweet and completely supportive and understand. He’s being my biggest cheerleader. I will survive this but it’s going to be a hell of a ride.
So, I would like a platform that is easy to use to update my progress for friends and family. I’ve announced it on facebook but I don’t want to sully my facebook of pics of me bald! Do any of you have ideas on a platform I can use? Maybe I should make a new facebook page for all the cancer updates. I don’t know. I guess I’ll figure it out as I go.
I will update here when I can. I have a feeling I’ll have a lot more to write about now. I guess we will see!
Send good thoughts and prayers!
grace
P.S.
Girls, get your mammo!!!!!!! I went for my yearly mammo and that is how they found it. It is small so they said had I waited it would have been much worse! GO GET YOUR MAMMOGRAMS!
